Wake Me Up When September Ends by Green Day

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when September ends

like my father's come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when September ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when September ends

summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when September ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when September ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when September ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when September ends

like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when September ends
wake me up when September ends
wake me up when September ends

Sebegitu Sulitnyakah?

Segitu susahnya kah mengakui kalo aku ini cuma pelarian....
Setidaknya aku bisa sadar betul kalo sebenarnya aku tidak lagi punya tempat dan tidak pernah benar-benar punya tempat...
Mengira bahwa kamu benar-benar mencintaiku itu sangat membuatku sedih
Bahwa seharusnya aku mengikuti apa yang aku lihat dari matamu bahwa cinta itu ternyata tidak pernah benar-benar ada untukku...

Sebegitu susahnyakah mengakui kalo aku ini cuma pelarian?

It's You by Super Junior [I don't need anyone else, it's only you]

lagu yang ketika mendengarkannya langsung bikin aku stuck dalam pekerjaan  apapun, dan langsung teringat dia. Kangen banget sama dia. Teringat gimana dulu aku cinta sama dia dan terus meyakini bahwa dia benar-benar mencintaiku. Kadang aku mikir, aneh ketika sebuah perasaan bisa terbagi dua untuk cinta dalam takaran yang sama kepada dua orang yang berbeda. Bukannya aku tidak percaya dengan kata-katanya dulu, aku percaya, sangat percaya. Aku terus percaya dia mencintaiku tapi untuk sekarang, entah mungkin cinta itu sudah tidak mungkin bisa ada lagi untukku, yang tersisa mungkin hanya rasa bersalah dan kasihan, karena aku sakit, tidak lebih.

Rasanya aneh mendapati aku masih merindukannya meski aku masih bisa melihatnya setiap hari. Seperti ada sebuah eksistensi yang hilang dan tidak mungkin bisa dikembalikan.

It's you........

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It's you by Super Junior

It’s you
It’s you
It’s you
It’s only you
It’s you
It’s you

I don’t need anyone else, it’s only you
When you ask again, it’s only you
Even if you already have another love
I can’t forget you, I can’t turn back around
Oh ~
The moment my eyes began to burn
The moment my heart was captured by you
I have no regret, I chose you
That’s right, it’s you

Chorus :
Oh whatever anyone anyone says, it doesn’t matter to me
Oh whoever whoever curses me, I’ll only look at you
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by

Oh when you tell me you love me
When you tell me thousands and millions of times
Even when my heart sets on fire, my dry lips wear out
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by

Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you

It’s you
I don’t need any words. it’s just you
“ It’s too late “ , but for me it’s just you
I know our love is wrong
I can’t give up, I can’t let you go
Ah Ah

My lips, cold as can be, are even more blue
I cry out to find to find your warmth
I call, even though I call for you
And there’s no reply, I’ll wait for you

Chorus :
Oh whatever anyone anyone says, it doesn’t matter to me
Oh whoever whoever curses me, I’ll only look at you
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by

Oh when you tell me you love me
When you tell me thousands and millions of times
Even when my heart sets on fire, my dry lips wear out
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by

Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you
For me, it’s you, it’s you
Why don’t you know, why don’t you know?
For me, it’s you, it’s you

Oh whatever anyone anyone says, it doesn’t matter to me
Oh whoever whoever curses me, I’ll only look at you
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by

Oh when you tell me you love me
When you tell me thousands and millions of times
Even when my heart sets on fire, my dry lips wear out
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by

It’s you

pada akhirnya aku selalu menjadi cengeng dan tidak bisa menahan air mata. Karena menatanya kembali dari awal dengan keadaan seperti ini begitu sulit dan melelahkan.
It's really hard to re-arrange everything from beginning and tonight, I missing you a lot!

In Heaven by JYJ [English Translation]

Wiping away the miracle of seeing you
I won’t be able to live on
Even when I’ve escaped from every dream
The first time I saw your image
It felt like i was drowning in the raindrops of this world

From where am I watching you?
Forever
Even if there’s regret, there’s really no way of seeing you
Memory of a shadow
Moistness of a name
It’s there in that little memory

I can’t do it, really can’t do it
It’s like you’re by my side
Not waiting, I’m not waiting anymore
I’ll try again to say something
I’ll try again to leave some memory
Walking in the dreamscape
In my footsteps
Afraid to close my eyes

Don’t go, don’t leave
Can’t you remain by my side
Lies, all are lies
I can’t hear anything
Love you, I love you
Can’t you see that from one single line
Love you, I love you
Will you love me again

So fast, you have already clean forgotten
the tracks of finding you have also disappeared

This last path, adheres closely to my tears
again I inch a little closer (again it’s about the same)

(I’ve also changed)
You’re not here by my side
I’m going to go now
I’m going to go
Now i’m going to follow your path
Follow an endless path
Going everywhere to find you
I’m afraid that losing her will bring sadness

Don’t go, don’t leave
can’t you remain by my side
lies, all are lies
i can’t hear anything
love you, i love you
can’t you see that from one single line
love you, i love you
will you love me again

don’t go, don’t go, can you remain here
lies, lies, i can’t hear
i love you, i love you, can you see that
i love you, i love you, will you love me

don’t go, don’t go, can you remain here
lies, lies, i can’t hear
i love you, i love you, can you see that
i love you, i love you, will you love me

don’t go, don’t go, can you remain here
lies, lies, i can’t hear
i love you, i love you, can you see that
i love you, i love you, will you love me
I beg you, come back to me

don’t go, don’t leave
can’t you remain by my side
lies, all are lies
i can’t hear anything
love you, i love you
can’t you see that from one single line
love you, i love you
will you love me again

My Missing Puzzle

So many things I wanna write but when I faced my laptop it just gone away..... -_-"


okay! Let's do
Let's think like an adult, at least oh  ... come on let's think like a nineteen years old experienced girl!

-stuck for ten minutes-

uh... yeah well today or... what it exactly said!

Note : I don't need more evidence, okay, I have ear for hearing, I have eyes for seeing, I have heart for feeling, I hear, I see, and I feel. It's clear enough! You already stopped it, it's me who have to follow you stopping. I know, what I have to do, I can't to get out, I trapped, okay I know, so, now I have to take out my heart keep it again on the ice box, keep the feeling freezing, let my body here as a friend, let my mind for inspiring, and help my soul to runs away by your side. Ssshhh.... It doesn't really over, but I try to make it over, stay there and keep your girlfriend well, that what friend has to say, right? okay ..... I know I just hurt, pain, break in pieces, but let see, I still alive, I survive, well, yeah now I'll stay live, and take the rest of my precious life to continue everything. So, I'll be fine!

Somehow, I miss you, I know you miss me as well but... Miss sometimes doesn't mean wanna meet and repeat...

that's not a big deal for me... anymore!

The point is .............

Let give some attention!
point 1 --- I'm the limited puzzle
point 2 --- I'm extremely perfection voter for mate
point 3 --- I never stay to fall in un-serious relationship
point 4 --- I'm such a bad ass scandalous loner girl
okay! everything is clear!
I had ever falling in love with someone, but he doesn't make me complete, he is the wrong part for my life with his bossy-man personality, before we take the risk for will-end-up-broke relationship, I leave... Then after few months, I found that man, he's not a boy, he's a man, suitable for my perfection mind, his mind really for-future-minded , kinda bad little (I love that), not bossy, fine friend, but the one problem is, he doesn't love me when I loved him, and I doesn't love him when he loved me, the evidence that make me sure that we won't completing each other, we have no destiny to be together. For the same choice, I leave!

It hard at first, but .... I'm fine and now, it feels easy

Then, after years goes by since the last time I felt in love... I found him!
point 1 --- He's the limited edition missing-puzzle
Point 2 --- He's extremely perfection as well
Point 3 --- He's a serious person in friendship
Point 4 --- He's such a bad ass scandalous loner boy
Okay, everything complete --- I was thought---
One day, I fall in love with him, then he makes me feel completely complete, he exactly suitable with my empty-part on my puzzle, I love his good and bad personality and love how he try to be honest person. We have same mind. Everything seems perfect, it was looks perfect. After I gave attention for one thing, he just already becomes someone else missing-puzzle, he already makes complete another girl, he already makes that puzzle fix, he can't move or that puzzle will mess up again.

And then... I listened the wrong-sign bell rang.. Tetottt..... Wrong person! uh-oh... Fail!

I give more attention.
Okay, we're suitable, okay we're can complete each other, okay we love each other ... But, it's not fair for another puzzle. I'm the puzzle too, I know how it feels. I know how it feels when the perfect life that you thought just happened all of sudden getting messy because of the wonder limited women in other side, that's fail.............

I give more heart.
Okay, we can be still friend

I give more more attention and I realize, it just me who try to talk with myself to give confident to stay away! Complicated huh...

I give attention again. I look deeply, when we were together, yes I felt complete but, it just in a glance, when I saw it again and again, I know the shape of the puzzle was complete but not the picture. I need triangle and you're triangle, I need square and you're square, I need prism and you're prism, but the picture is wrong, I need yellow but you're orange -the orange one is she-, I need the last part of beach picture but you're the last part of mountain picture -the mountain picture one is she-, I need a part for a princess with pink dress picture, yes you're, you are the last part of the princess picture but with the withe dress, not pink -see it- the princess picture with white dress one is she-

Everything clear now, we're suitable in shape but the color just wrong!

I never know if it will forever or someday your color changes, whatever . Now, I wont make that perfect puzzle mess up. Stay calm...

-It's easy to say but hard to do-
I know you already know it since long long time ago and how fail I just realize it few times ago after I saw both of you went together (and saw how suitable both-of-you are like adam and eve, romeo and juliet). At least I try and I success to try, it just need time to do....

I still believe that we fated to be together, I still believe that we're layla and majnun, I still believe that someday I can hold your hand tightly without guilty feeling, I still believe I love you but............

Yeah I had ever said few years ago "Don't ever hurt her, I'm a woman too, I know how it feels, don't ever try to hurt her or I'll kill you" I said that as a warm-heart friend, I don't know if you remember or not, but now how surprise that I am the one who can be the reason she's hurt, sorry to say but that rule still rule! "Don't ever hurt her, take care your girlfriend" that what friend has to say...

I love you, and I love how she loves you or you love her. Somehow it hurts but I love you two! Stay with that serious love, or I'll getting upset to see what I try to make up just get a mess!

and keep it in your head, once I know that both of you getting mess again and being hurt, you won't ever can stop or runaway from me, I'll take my chance to get you as my damn-missing-puzzle, I won't be the warm-heart friend like this twice, just once .... You know how evil I can be!

From Your dearest friend, the-missing-puzzle-hunter

For, my dear, my missing-suck-puzzle

Stay believe in friendship! Fate just God knows! That's the point at all...
Keep missing me, I keep missing you, keep loving me, I keep loving you until the time comes and .... make it can be learned!

Jealous or/and Envy

Jealous is, when he hangs out with his girlfriend and I getting angry and jealous with his girlfriend
Envy is, when he hangs out with his girlfriend and I getting angry because he has girlfriend and I don't have boyfriend ...

I thought it back to re-categorized my feeling .....

LoL -_- yeah, maybe will help!

I'm So Ugly by 40 Below Summer

Cause I'm a sideshow freak - a long legged geek
Gonna be feeling the flames and feel the heat of my pain
Now I know everybody hates me -
Tries to fake me and tries to degrade me
Ain't shit, never gonna be shit -
And I don't give a shit - not one little bit
Oh please, just shut the fuck up -
Why the hell are you so stuck up
Oh please, just leave me be -
I know but I can't believe that
I'm so ugly - nobody wants me -
I'm so ugly that nobody ever wants to touch me
I'm so ugly - nobody wants me -
I'm so ugly that nobody ever wants me
I shouldn't kill, but I will if I must -
I'm going off and I'm about to bust
In the dark - can't find my way -
And I wake up to it every single day
But I'll keep moving on -
Singing that same old song - Yo, I gotta be strong
I'll keep moving on -
Singing that same old song - for how long
Don't ya know that my life's killing me -
Don't ya know from before that I still bleed
Why can't you set me free -
You'll always see that
I'm so ugly - nobody wants me -
I'm so ugly that nobody ever wants to touch me
I'm so ugly - nobody wants me -
I'm so ugly that nobody ever me
Shut the fuck up - sit your ass down
It's my time bitch - eat your heart out [x2]
Shut the fuck up - sit your ass down
It's my time now eat your fucking heart out [x2]
I'm just one ugly mother fucker [x4]
I'm so ugly [x4]