Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when September ends
like my father's come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when September ends
here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are
as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when September ends
summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when September ends
ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when September ends
here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are
as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when September ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when September ends
like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when September ends
wake me up when September ends
wake me up when September ends
Jumat, September 30, 2011
Rabu, September 28, 2011
Sebegitu Sulitnyakah?
Segitu susahnya kah mengakui kalo aku ini cuma pelarian....
Setidaknya aku bisa sadar betul kalo sebenarnya aku tidak lagi punya tempat dan tidak pernah benar-benar punya tempat...
Mengira bahwa kamu benar-benar mencintaiku itu sangat membuatku sedih
Bahwa seharusnya aku mengikuti apa yang aku lihat dari matamu bahwa cinta itu ternyata tidak pernah benar-benar ada untukku...
Sebegitu susahnyakah mengakui kalo aku ini cuma pelarian?
Setidaknya aku bisa sadar betul kalo sebenarnya aku tidak lagi punya tempat dan tidak pernah benar-benar punya tempat...
Mengira bahwa kamu benar-benar mencintaiku itu sangat membuatku sedih
Bahwa seharusnya aku mengikuti apa yang aku lihat dari matamu bahwa cinta itu ternyata tidak pernah benar-benar ada untukku...
Sebegitu susahnyakah mengakui kalo aku ini cuma pelarian?
Minggu, September 18, 2011
It's You by Super Junior [I don't need anyone else, it's only you]
lagu yang ketika mendengarkannya langsung bikin aku stuck dalam pekerjaan apapun, dan langsung teringat dia. Kangen banget sama dia. Teringat gimana dulu aku cinta sama dia dan terus meyakini bahwa dia benar-benar mencintaiku. Kadang aku mikir, aneh ketika sebuah perasaan bisa terbagi dua untuk cinta dalam takaran yang sama kepada dua orang yang berbeda. Bukannya aku tidak percaya dengan kata-katanya dulu, aku percaya, sangat percaya. Aku terus percaya dia mencintaiku tapi untuk sekarang, entah mungkin cinta itu sudah tidak mungkin bisa ada lagi untukku, yang tersisa mungkin hanya rasa bersalah dan kasihan, karena aku sakit, tidak lebih.
Rasanya aneh mendapati aku masih merindukannya meski aku masih bisa melihatnya setiap hari. Seperti ada sebuah eksistensi yang hilang dan tidak mungkin bisa dikembalikan.
It's you........
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It's you by Super Junior
It’s you
It’s you
It’s you
It’s only you
It’s you
It’s you
It’s you
It’s you
It’s only you
It’s you
It’s you
I don’t need anyone else, it’s only you
When you ask again, it’s only you
Even if you already have another love
I can’t forget you, I can’t turn back around
Oh ~
The moment my eyes began to burn
The moment my heart was captured by you
I have no regret, I chose you
That’s right, it’s you
When you ask again, it’s only you
Even if you already have another love
I can’t forget you, I can’t turn back around
Oh ~
The moment my eyes began to burn
The moment my heart was captured by you
I have no regret, I chose you
That’s right, it’s you
Chorus :
Oh whatever anyone anyone says, it doesn’t matter to me
Oh whoever whoever curses me, I’ll only look at you
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by
Oh whatever anyone anyone says, it doesn’t matter to me
Oh whoever whoever curses me, I’ll only look at you
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by
Oh when you tell me you love me
When you tell me thousands and millions of times
Even when my heart sets on fire, my dry lips wear out
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by
When you tell me thousands and millions of times
Even when my heart sets on fire, my dry lips wear out
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you
It’s you
I don’t need any words. it’s just you
“ It’s too late “ , but for me it’s just you
I know our love is wrong
I can’t give up, I can’t let you go
Ah Ah
I don’t need any words. it’s just you
“ It’s too late “ , but for me it’s just you
I know our love is wrong
I can’t give up, I can’t let you go
Ah Ah
My lips, cold as can be, are even more blue
I cry out to find to find your warmth
I call, even though I call for you
And there’s no reply, I’ll wait for you
I cry out to find to find your warmth
I call, even though I call for you
And there’s no reply, I’ll wait for you
Chorus :
Oh whatever anyone anyone says, it doesn’t matter to me
Oh whoever whoever curses me, I’ll only look at you
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by
Oh whatever anyone anyone says, it doesn’t matter to me
Oh whoever whoever curses me, I’ll only look at you
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by
Oh when you tell me you love me
When you tell me thousands and millions of times
Even when my heart sets on fire, my dry lips wear out
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by
When you tell me thousands and millions of times
Even when my heart sets on fire, my dry lips wear out
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you
For me, it’s you, it’s you
Why don’t you know, why don’t you know?
For me, it’s you, it’s you
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you
For me, it’s you, it’s you
Why don’t you know, why don’t you know?
For me, it’s you, it’s you
Oh whatever anyone anyone says, it doesn’t matter to me
Oh whoever whoever curses me, I’ll only look at you
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by
Oh whoever whoever curses me, I’ll only look at you
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by
Oh when you tell me you love me
When you tell me thousands and millions of times
Even when my heart sets on fire, my dry lips wear out
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by
When you tell me thousands and millions of times
Even when my heart sets on fire, my dry lips wear out
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by
It’s you
pada akhirnya aku selalu menjadi cengeng dan tidak bisa menahan air mata. Karena menatanya kembali dari awal dengan keadaan seperti ini begitu sulit dan melelahkan.
It's really hard to re-arrange everything from beginning and tonight, I missing you a lot!
In Heaven by JYJ [English Translation]
Wiping away the miracle of seeing you
I won’t be able to live on
Even when I’ve escaped from every dream
The first time I saw your image
It felt like i was drowning in the raindrops of this world
I won’t be able to live on
Even when I’ve escaped from every dream
The first time I saw your image
It felt like i was drowning in the raindrops of this world
From where am I watching you?
Forever
Even if there’s regret, there’s really no way of seeing you
Memory of a shadow
Moistness of a name
It’s there in that little memory
Forever
Even if there’s regret, there’s really no way of seeing you
Memory of a shadow
Moistness of a name
It’s there in that little memory
I can’t do it, really can’t do it
It’s like you’re by my side
Not waiting, I’m not waiting anymore
I’ll try again to say something
I’ll try again to leave some memory
Walking in the dreamscape
In my footsteps
Afraid to close my eyes
It’s like you’re by my side
Not waiting, I’m not waiting anymore
I’ll try again to say something
I’ll try again to leave some memory
Walking in the dreamscape
In my footsteps
Afraid to close my eyes
Don’t go, don’t leave
Can’t you remain by my side
Lies, all are lies
I can’t hear anything
Love you, I love you
Can’t you see that from one single line
Love you, I love you
Will you love me again
Can’t you remain by my side
Lies, all are lies
I can’t hear anything
Love you, I love you
Can’t you see that from one single line
Love you, I love you
Will you love me again
So fast, you have already clean forgotten
the tracks of finding you have also disappeared
the tracks of finding you have also disappeared
This last path, adheres closely to my tears
again I inch a little closer (again it’s about the same)
again I inch a little closer (again it’s about the same)
(I’ve also changed)
You’re not here by my side
I’m going to go now
I’m going to go
Now i’m going to follow your path
Follow an endless path
Going everywhere to find you
I’m afraid that losing her will bring sadness
You’re not here by my side
I’m going to go now
I’m going to go
Now i’m going to follow your path
Follow an endless path
Going everywhere to find you
I’m afraid that losing her will bring sadness
Don’t go, don’t leave
can’t you remain by my side
lies, all are lies
i can’t hear anything
love you, i love you
can’t you see that from one single line
love you, i love you
will you love me again
can’t you remain by my side
lies, all are lies
i can’t hear anything
love you, i love you
can’t you see that from one single line
love you, i love you
will you love me again
don’t go, don’t go, can you remain here
lies, lies, i can’t hear
i love you, i love you, can you see that
i love you, i love you, will you love me
lies, lies, i can’t hear
i love you, i love you, can you see that
i love you, i love you, will you love me
don’t go, don’t go, can you remain here
lies, lies, i can’t hear
i love you, i love you, can you see that
i love you, i love you, will you love me
lies, lies, i can’t hear
i love you, i love you, can you see that
i love you, i love you, will you love me
don’t go, don’t go, can you remain here
lies, lies, i can’t hear
i love you, i love you, can you see that
i love you, i love you, will you love me
I beg you, come back to me
lies, lies, i can’t hear
i love you, i love you, can you see that
i love you, i love you, will you love me
I beg you, come back to me
don’t go, don’t leave
can’t you remain by my side
lies, all are lies
i can’t hear anything
love you, i love you
can’t you see that from one single line
love you, i love you
will you love me again
can’t you remain by my side
lies, all are lies
i can’t hear anything
love you, i love you
can’t you see that from one single line
love you, i love you
will you love me again
Sabtu, September 17, 2011
My Missing Puzzle
So many things I wanna write but when I faced my laptop it just gone away..... -_-"
okay! Let's do
Let's think like an adult, at least oh ... come on let's think like a nineteen years old experienced girl!
-stuck for ten minutes-
uh... yeah well today or... what it exactly said!
Note : I don't need more evidence, okay, I have ear for hearing, I have eyes for seeing, I have heart for feeling, I hear, I see, and I feel. It's clear enough! You already stopped it, it's me who have to follow you stopping. I know, what I have to do, I can't to get out, I trapped, okay I know, so, now I have to take out my heart keep it again on the ice box, keep the feeling freezing, let my body here as a friend, let my mind for inspiring, and help my soul to runs away by your side. Ssshhh.... It doesn't really over, but I try to make it over, stay there and keep your girlfriend well, that what friend has to say, right? okay ..... I know I just hurt, pain, break in pieces, but let see, I still alive, I survive, well, yeah now I'll stay live, and take the rest of my precious life to continue everything. So, I'll be fine!
Somehow, I miss you, I know you miss me as well but... Miss sometimes doesn't mean wanna meet and repeat...
that's not a big deal for me... anymore!
The point is .............
Let give some attention!
point 1 --- I'm the limited puzzle
point 2 --- I'm extremely perfection voter for mate
point 3 --- I never stay to fall in un-serious relationship
point 4 --- I'm such a bad ass scandalous loner girl
okay! everything is clear!
I had ever falling in love with someone, but he doesn't make me complete, he is the wrong part for my life with his bossy-man personality, before we take the risk for will-end-up-broke relationship, I leave... Then after few months, I found that man, he's not a boy, he's a man, suitable for my perfection mind, his mind really for-future-minded , kinda bad little (I love that), not bossy, fine friend, but the one problem is, he doesn't love me when I loved him, and I doesn't love him when he loved me, the evidence that make me sure that we won't completing each other, we have no destiny to be together. For the same choice, I leave!
It hard at first, but .... I'm fine and now, it feels easy
Then, after years goes by since the last time I felt in love... I found him!
point 1 --- He's the limited edition missing-puzzle
Point 2 --- He's extremely perfection as well
Point 3 --- He's a serious person in friendship
Point 4 --- He's such a bad ass scandalous loner boy
Okay, everything complete --- I was thought---
One day, I fall in love with him, then he makes me feel completely complete, he exactly suitable with my empty-part on my puzzle, I love his good and bad personality and love how he try to be honest person. We have same mind. Everything seems perfect, it was looks perfect. After I gave attention for one thing, he just already becomes someone else missing-puzzle, he already makes complete another girl, he already makes that puzzle fix, he can't move or that puzzle will mess up again.
And then... I listened the wrong-sign bell rang.. Tetottt..... Wrong person! uh-oh... Fail!
I give more attention.
Okay, we're suitable, okay we're can complete each other, okay we love each other ... But, it's not fair for another puzzle. I'm the puzzle too, I know how it feels. I know how it feels when the perfect life that you thought just happened all of sudden getting messy because of the wonder limited women in other side, that's fail.............
I give more heart.
Okay, we can be still friend
I give more more attention and I realize, it just me who try to talk with myself to give confident to stay away! Complicated huh...
I give attention again. I look deeply, when we were together, yes I felt complete but, it just in a glance, when I saw it again and again, I know the shape of the puzzle was complete but not the picture. I need triangle and you're triangle, I need square and you're square, I need prism and you're prism, but the picture is wrong, I need yellow but you're orange -the orange one is she-, I need the last part of beach picture but you're the last part of mountain picture -the mountain picture one is she-, I need a part for a princess with pink dress picture, yes you're, you are the last part of the princess picture but with the withe dress, not pink -see it- the princess picture with white dress one is she-
Everything clear now, we're suitable in shape but the color just wrong!
I never know if it will forever or someday your color changes, whatever . Now, I wont make that perfect puzzle mess up. Stay calm...
-It's easy to say but hard to do-
I know you already know it since long long time ago and how fail I just realize it few times ago after I saw both of you went together (and saw how suitable both-of-you are like adam and eve, romeo and juliet). At least I try and I success to try, it just need time to do....
I still believe that we fated to be together, I still believe that we're layla and majnun, I still believe that someday I can hold your hand tightly without guilty feeling, I still believe I love you but............
Yeah I had ever said few years ago "Don't ever hurt her, I'm a woman too, I know how it feels, don't ever try to hurt her or I'll kill you" I said that as a warm-heart friend, I don't know if you remember or not, but now how surprise that I am the one who can be the reason she's hurt, sorry to say but that rule still rule! "Don't ever hurt her, take care your girlfriend" that what friend has to say...
I love you, and I love how she loves you or you love her. Somehow it hurts but I love you two! Stay with that serious love, or I'll getting upset to see what I try to make up just get a mess!
and keep it in your head, once I know that both of you getting mess again and being hurt, you won't ever can stop or runaway from me, I'll take my chance to get you as my damn-missing-puzzle, I won't be the warm-heart friend like this twice, just once .... You know how evil I can be!
Stay believe in friendship! Fate just God knows! That's the point at all...
Keep missing me, I keep missing you, keep loving me, I keep loving you until the time comes and .... make it can be learned!
okay! Let's do
Let's think like an adult, at least oh ... come on let's think like a nineteen years old experienced girl!
-stuck for ten minutes-
uh... yeah well today or... what it exactly said!
Note : I don't need more evidence, okay, I have ear for hearing, I have eyes for seeing, I have heart for feeling, I hear, I see, and I feel. It's clear enough! You already stopped it, it's me who have to follow you stopping. I know, what I have to do, I can't to get out, I trapped, okay I know, so, now I have to take out my heart keep it again on the ice box, keep the feeling freezing, let my body here as a friend, let my mind for inspiring, and help my soul to runs away by your side. Ssshhh.... It doesn't really over, but I try to make it over, stay there and keep your girlfriend well, that what friend has to say, right? okay ..... I know I just hurt, pain, break in pieces, but let see, I still alive, I survive, well, yeah now I'll stay live, and take the rest of my precious life to continue everything. So, I'll be fine!
Somehow, I miss you, I know you miss me as well but... Miss sometimes doesn't mean wanna meet and repeat...
that's not a big deal for me... anymore!
The point is .............
Let give some attention!
point 1 --- I'm the limited puzzle
point 2 --- I'm extremely perfection voter for mate
point 3 --- I never stay to fall in un-serious relationship
point 4 --- I'm such a bad ass scandalous loner girl
okay! everything is clear!
I had ever falling in love with someone, but he doesn't make me complete, he is the wrong part for my life with his bossy-man personality, before we take the risk for will-end-up-broke relationship, I leave... Then after few months, I found that man, he's not a boy, he's a man, suitable for my perfection mind, his mind really for-future-minded , kinda bad little (I love that), not bossy, fine friend, but the one problem is, he doesn't love me when I loved him, and I doesn't love him when he loved me, the evidence that make me sure that we won't completing each other, we have no destiny to be together. For the same choice, I leave!
It hard at first, but .... I'm fine and now, it feels easy
Then, after years goes by since the last time I felt in love... I found him!
point 1 --- He's the limited edition missing-puzzle
Point 2 --- He's extremely perfection as well
Point 3 --- He's a serious person in friendship
Point 4 --- He's such a bad ass scandalous loner boy
Okay, everything complete --- I was thought---
One day, I fall in love with him, then he makes me feel completely complete, he exactly suitable with my empty-part on my puzzle, I love his good and bad personality and love how he try to be honest person. We have same mind. Everything seems perfect, it was looks perfect. After I gave attention for one thing, he just already becomes someone else missing-puzzle, he already makes complete another girl, he already makes that puzzle fix, he can't move or that puzzle will mess up again.
And then... I listened the wrong-sign bell rang.. Tetottt..... Wrong person! uh-oh... Fail!
I give more attention.
Okay, we're suitable, okay we're can complete each other, okay we love each other ... But, it's not fair for another puzzle. I'm the puzzle too, I know how it feels. I know how it feels when the perfect life that you thought just happened all of sudden getting messy because of the wonder limited women in other side, that's fail.............
I give more heart.
Okay, we can be still friend
I give more more attention and I realize, it just me who try to talk with myself to give confident to stay away! Complicated huh...
I give attention again. I look deeply, when we were together, yes I felt complete but, it just in a glance, when I saw it again and again, I know the shape of the puzzle was complete but not the picture. I need triangle and you're triangle, I need square and you're square, I need prism and you're prism, but the picture is wrong, I need yellow but you're orange -the orange one is she-, I need the last part of beach picture but you're the last part of mountain picture -the mountain picture one is she-, I need a part for a princess with pink dress picture, yes you're, you are the last part of the princess picture but with the withe dress, not pink -see it- the princess picture with white dress one is she-
Everything clear now, we're suitable in shape but the color just wrong!
I never know if it will forever or someday your color changes, whatever . Now, I wont make that perfect puzzle mess up. Stay calm...
-It's easy to say but hard to do-
I know you already know it since long long time ago and how fail I just realize it few times ago after I saw both of you went together (and saw how suitable both-of-you are like adam and eve, romeo and juliet). At least I try and I success to try, it just need time to do....
I still believe that we fated to be together, I still believe that we're layla and majnun, I still believe that someday I can hold your hand tightly without guilty feeling, I still believe I love you but............
Yeah I had ever said few years ago "Don't ever hurt her, I'm a woman too, I know how it feels, don't ever try to hurt her or I'll kill you" I said that as a warm-heart friend, I don't know if you remember or not, but now how surprise that I am the one who can be the reason she's hurt, sorry to say but that rule still rule! "Don't ever hurt her, take care your girlfriend" that what friend has to say...
I love you, and I love how she loves you or you love her. Somehow it hurts but I love you two! Stay with that serious love, or I'll getting upset to see what I try to make up just get a mess!
and keep it in your head, once I know that both of you getting mess again and being hurt, you won't ever can stop or runaway from me, I'll take my chance to get you as my damn-missing-puzzle, I won't be the warm-heart friend like this twice, just once .... You know how evil I can be!
From Your dearest friend, the-missing-puzzle-hunter
For, my dear, my missing-suck-puzzle
Stay believe in friendship! Fate just God knows! That's the point at all...
Keep missing me, I keep missing you, keep loving me, I keep loving you until the time comes and .... make it can be learned!
Jealous or/and Envy
Jealous is, when he hangs out with his girlfriend and I getting angry and jealous with his girlfriend
Envy is, when he hangs out with his girlfriend and I getting angry because he has girlfriend and I don't have boyfriend ...
I thought it back to re-categorized my feeling .....
LoL -_- yeah, maybe will help!
Envy is, when he hangs out with his girlfriend and I getting angry because he has girlfriend and I don't have boyfriend ...
I thought it back to re-categorized my feeling .....
LoL -_- yeah, maybe will help!
Selasa, September 13, 2011
I'm So Ugly by 40 Below Summer
Cause I'm a sideshow freak - a long legged geek
Gonna be feeling the flames and feel the heat of my pain
Now I know everybody hates me -
Tries to fake me and tries to degrade me
Ain't shit, never gonna be shit -
And I don't give a shit - not one little bit
Oh please, just shut the fuck up -
Why the hell are you so stuck up
Oh please, just leave me be -
I know but I can't believe that
I'm so ugly - nobody wants me -
I'm so ugly that nobody ever wants to touch me
I'm so ugly - nobody wants me -
I'm so ugly that nobody ever wants me
I shouldn't kill, but I will if I must -
I'm going off and I'm about to bust
In the dark - can't find my way -
And I wake up to it every single day
But I'll keep moving on -
Singing that same old song - Yo, I gotta be strong
I'll keep moving on -
Singing that same old song - for how long
Don't ya know that my life's killing me -
Don't ya know from before that I still bleed
Why can't you set me free -
You'll always see that
I'm so ugly - nobody wants me -
I'm so ugly that nobody ever wants to touch me
I'm so ugly - nobody wants me -
I'm so ugly that nobody ever me
Shut the fuck up - sit your ass down
It's my time bitch - eat your heart out [x2]
Shut the fuck up - sit your ass down
It's my time now eat your fucking heart out [x2]
I'm just one ugly mother fucker [x4]
I'm so ugly [x4]
Gonna be feeling the flames and feel the heat of my pain
Now I know everybody hates me -
Tries to fake me and tries to degrade me
Ain't shit, never gonna be shit -
And I don't give a shit - not one little bit
Oh please, just shut the fuck up -
Why the hell are you so stuck up
Oh please, just leave me be -
I know but I can't believe that
I'm so ugly - nobody wants me -
I'm so ugly that nobody ever wants to touch me
I'm so ugly - nobody wants me -
I'm so ugly that nobody ever wants me
I shouldn't kill, but I will if I must -
I'm going off and I'm about to bust
In the dark - can't find my way -
And I wake up to it every single day
But I'll keep moving on -
Singing that same old song - Yo, I gotta be strong
I'll keep moving on -
Singing that same old song - for how long
Don't ya know that my life's killing me -
Don't ya know from before that I still bleed
Why can't you set me free -
You'll always see that
I'm so ugly - nobody wants me -
I'm so ugly that nobody ever wants to touch me
I'm so ugly - nobody wants me -
I'm so ugly that nobody ever me
Shut the fuck up - sit your ass down
It's my time bitch - eat your heart out [x2]
Shut the fuck up - sit your ass down
It's my time now eat your fucking heart out [x2]
I'm just one ugly mother fucker [x4]
I'm so ugly [x4]
Menyamar
Aku menghentikannya, aku sudah mencoba menghentikannya tapi dialam bawah sadarku aku tetap terus memimpikan semuanya, membuatku tidak ingin bangun lagi ketika tidur dan memaksaku untuk tidak tidur saat terjaga karena terjaga darinya begitu menyakitkan
Rasanya seperti saat kau tidur kau mendapati dunia terbaik yang selalu kamu harapkan dan tepat di klimaksnya, tanpa antiklimaks sedikitpun dunia itu hilang begitu saja dan kau bangun dengan keadaan shock. Kamu benci karena berharap terus tidur selamanya saat terbangun, namun disaat yang sama kau tidak akan berusaha tidur lagi dan mendapatkan lagi mimpi itu karena saat kau terjaga saat itulah kau sadar bahwa dunia itu hanyalah mimpi, sebuah informasi yang sangat mengecewakan yang membuatmu bahkan tidak ingin tidur lagi untuk mengulangnya.
Kemarin untuk beberapa saat aku sempat mengalihkan pikiran. Aku pikir aku berhasil, aku hampir sukses, paling tidak aku bisa tersenyum dan menyukai orang lain dengan normal. Aku mencoba dan saat aku mulai menyelami pikiranku lebih dalam, rasanya memang pengalih itu tidak benar dan tidak manjur.
Aku pernah bertemu 'teman spesial' masa SMA, saat dulu aku tidak sempat menyampaikan perasaanku padanya, hingga sekarang melihat wajahnya masih membuat aku gugup. Kemarin dia terlihat sama seperti setahun lalu saat terakhir aku melihatnya, manis, tapi saat kukira aku masih mencintainya, aku juga ternyata salah.
Aku ingat, temanku bilang 'mantan pacarku' pernah mencariku. Aku tidak punya ekspektasi apapun, karena memang itu sudah lama berakhir, aku hanya menyayanginya sebatas teman dan dia punya pacar yang lebih baik sekarang, tapi ketika terpintas dalam pikiranku sesuatu, sesuatu yang kupikir juga bisa mengalihkan pikiranku, aku berhenti saat itu juga dilangkah pertama. Aku akan melakukan kesalahan lagi jika memulainya. Aku tahu betul aku menyayanginya tidak lebih dari seorang teman.
Aku bahkan tahu siapa yang pernah menulis pesan 'love you' -yang lain- dikertas pesan dipintu, orang yang baik, pintar, eksistensinya bagus, aku sering bertemu dengannya dikampus bahkan, kami berteman sejak semester pertama, beda prodi sih tapi.... ketika aku berpikir lebih jauh, aku tidak sanggup, aku sama sekali tidak pernah tega menggunakan dia sebagai 'alat' pelega bahwa aku masih punya -orang lain-, atau bahkan 'alat' untuk membalas dendam.
Yang bisa aku lakukan adalah bermimikri, mimikri macam apa? Aku perempuan, dan perempuan didunia ini semua tahu bahwa jenis kami adalah yang terbaik dalam menyamarkan banyak hal. Kami pandai menyamarkan kejelekan sehingga kami selalu terlihat canitk, kami bahkan menyamarkan kejelekan itu kadang hanya dengan senyuman, kami pandai menyamarkan amarah dengan kabur ke toilet wanita untuk memukul-mukul tembok atau berteriak dan keluar dengan wajah sumringah, kami bisa menyembunyikan rasa benci pada orang lain dan melampiaskannya lewat tatapan merendahkan yang tidak terlihat, kami bisa menyamarkan kekuatan kami yang membuat orang melihat kami selalu perlu bantuan, kami pandai menyamarkan sembab merah mata dengan polesan bedak yang telaten, kami pandai menyamarkan mata kurang tidur kami dengan riasan yang sedikit tapi bermakna, kami bisa samarkan rambut yang lima hari tidak keramas dengan vitamin rambut atau hiasan rambut yang menyegarkan, kami bisa samarkan semuanya, hanya kadang ada satu hal yang kami para perempuan sulit untuk samarkan keberadaannya. Perempuan sulit menyamarkan kebohongan dan perasaan cinta.
Aku selalu ingin menjadi bunglon yang sempurna, tapi aku cacat untuk berubah warna disaat aku ingin.
Dan pada akhirnya yang kulakukan hanyalah menyamarkan keberadaanku sendiri, aku berubah menjadi seseorang yang 'penting' namun disaat yang sama bukan orang yang harus untuk dipandang secara detail. Itu membuat semakin banyak orang mengenalku namun semakin sedikit yang memahamiku.
Aku selalu bisa, karena aku kuat, aku selalu berusaha mencari segala-galanya cara untuk bertahan sendiri, setengah diriku mungkin bisa melakukannya, tapi tersisa setengah yang mati, kosong, hilang, dan tidak pernah mau menerima segala bentuk pertahanan yang aku buat. Salah satunya adalah alam bawah sadarku. Jauh disini, aku tertekan oleh tingkah alam bawah sadarku.
Selama aku tidak mampu kendalikan mimpi maka yang aku bisa hanya kendalikan tidur.
Lelah memang mempunyai banyak kegiatan dan pekerjaan. Tapi aku merasa lega ketika aku selalu punya alasan untuk menghindari tidur, aku tidak pernah ingin melewati fase dimana aku harus bermimpi karena mimpi itu terus terulang seperti piringan kaset rusak dan adegan terulang dibagian yang sama.
Aku hanya tidur ketika aku benar-benar lelah dan benar-benar yakin tidak akan bermimpi.
Sungguh aneh! Tapi memang hanya itu yang bisa kulakukan, tidak ada cara yang lebih baik, tidak akan pernah ada, dan mungkin sejak hari hari dan hari berlalu, eyeliner, mascara, dan semua yang bisa menutupi bahwa malam ini aku tidak tidur, hari demi hari akan semakin kentara....
Aku tidak menemukan cara menyamar yang lebih baik dari ini....
Rasanya seperti saat kau tidur kau mendapati dunia terbaik yang selalu kamu harapkan dan tepat di klimaksnya, tanpa antiklimaks sedikitpun dunia itu hilang begitu saja dan kau bangun dengan keadaan shock. Kamu benci karena berharap terus tidur selamanya saat terbangun, namun disaat yang sama kau tidak akan berusaha tidur lagi dan mendapatkan lagi mimpi itu karena saat kau terjaga saat itulah kau sadar bahwa dunia itu hanyalah mimpi, sebuah informasi yang sangat mengecewakan yang membuatmu bahkan tidak ingin tidur lagi untuk mengulangnya.
Kemarin untuk beberapa saat aku sempat mengalihkan pikiran. Aku pikir aku berhasil, aku hampir sukses, paling tidak aku bisa tersenyum dan menyukai orang lain dengan normal. Aku mencoba dan saat aku mulai menyelami pikiranku lebih dalam, rasanya memang pengalih itu tidak benar dan tidak manjur.
Aku pernah bertemu 'teman spesial' masa SMA, saat dulu aku tidak sempat menyampaikan perasaanku padanya, hingga sekarang melihat wajahnya masih membuat aku gugup. Kemarin dia terlihat sama seperti setahun lalu saat terakhir aku melihatnya, manis, tapi saat kukira aku masih mencintainya, aku juga ternyata salah.
Aku ingat, temanku bilang 'mantan pacarku' pernah mencariku. Aku tidak punya ekspektasi apapun, karena memang itu sudah lama berakhir, aku hanya menyayanginya sebatas teman dan dia punya pacar yang lebih baik sekarang, tapi ketika terpintas dalam pikiranku sesuatu, sesuatu yang kupikir juga bisa mengalihkan pikiranku, aku berhenti saat itu juga dilangkah pertama. Aku akan melakukan kesalahan lagi jika memulainya. Aku tahu betul aku menyayanginya tidak lebih dari seorang teman.
Aku bahkan tahu siapa yang pernah menulis pesan 'love you' -yang lain- dikertas pesan dipintu, orang yang baik, pintar, eksistensinya bagus, aku sering bertemu dengannya dikampus bahkan, kami berteman sejak semester pertama, beda prodi sih tapi.... ketika aku berpikir lebih jauh, aku tidak sanggup, aku sama sekali tidak pernah tega menggunakan dia sebagai 'alat' pelega bahwa aku masih punya -orang lain-, atau bahkan 'alat' untuk membalas dendam.
Yang bisa aku lakukan adalah bermimikri, mimikri macam apa? Aku perempuan, dan perempuan didunia ini semua tahu bahwa jenis kami adalah yang terbaik dalam menyamarkan banyak hal. Kami pandai menyamarkan kejelekan sehingga kami selalu terlihat canitk, kami bahkan menyamarkan kejelekan itu kadang hanya dengan senyuman, kami pandai menyamarkan amarah dengan kabur ke toilet wanita untuk memukul-mukul tembok atau berteriak dan keluar dengan wajah sumringah, kami bisa menyembunyikan rasa benci pada orang lain dan melampiaskannya lewat tatapan merendahkan yang tidak terlihat, kami bisa menyamarkan kekuatan kami yang membuat orang melihat kami selalu perlu bantuan, kami pandai menyamarkan sembab merah mata dengan polesan bedak yang telaten, kami pandai menyamarkan mata kurang tidur kami dengan riasan yang sedikit tapi bermakna, kami bisa samarkan rambut yang lima hari tidak keramas dengan vitamin rambut atau hiasan rambut yang menyegarkan, kami bisa samarkan semuanya, hanya kadang ada satu hal yang kami para perempuan sulit untuk samarkan keberadaannya. Perempuan sulit menyamarkan kebohongan dan perasaan cinta.
Aku selalu ingin menjadi bunglon yang sempurna, tapi aku cacat untuk berubah warna disaat aku ingin.
Dan pada akhirnya yang kulakukan hanyalah menyamarkan keberadaanku sendiri, aku berubah menjadi seseorang yang 'penting' namun disaat yang sama bukan orang yang harus untuk dipandang secara detail. Itu membuat semakin banyak orang mengenalku namun semakin sedikit yang memahamiku.
Aku selalu bisa, karena aku kuat, aku selalu berusaha mencari segala-galanya cara untuk bertahan sendiri, setengah diriku mungkin bisa melakukannya, tapi tersisa setengah yang mati, kosong, hilang, dan tidak pernah mau menerima segala bentuk pertahanan yang aku buat. Salah satunya adalah alam bawah sadarku. Jauh disini, aku tertekan oleh tingkah alam bawah sadarku.
Selama aku tidak mampu kendalikan mimpi maka yang aku bisa hanya kendalikan tidur.
Lelah memang mempunyai banyak kegiatan dan pekerjaan. Tapi aku merasa lega ketika aku selalu punya alasan untuk menghindari tidur, aku tidak pernah ingin melewati fase dimana aku harus bermimpi karena mimpi itu terus terulang seperti piringan kaset rusak dan adegan terulang dibagian yang sama.
Aku hanya tidur ketika aku benar-benar lelah dan benar-benar yakin tidak akan bermimpi.
Sungguh aneh! Tapi memang hanya itu yang bisa kulakukan, tidak ada cara yang lebih baik, tidak akan pernah ada, dan mungkin sejak hari hari dan hari berlalu, eyeliner, mascara, dan semua yang bisa menutupi bahwa malam ini aku tidak tidur, hari demi hari akan semakin kentara....
Aku tidak menemukan cara menyamar yang lebih baik dari ini....
Senin, September 12, 2011
In My Head by Jason Derulo
Jason Derulo.
Deluga Heights.
J. J. J. J. J. R.
Come on.
Everybodys looking for love. Oh. Oh.
Aint that the reason youre at this club. Oh. Oh.
You aint gonna find a dance with him. No. Oh.
Got a better solution for you girl. Oh. Oh.
Just stay with me now. Say the word and well go.
Ill be your teacher. Ill show you the ropes.
Youll see a side of love you've never known.
I can see it going down, going down.
In my head, I see you all over me.
In my head, you fulfill my fantasy.
In my head Youll be screaming no.
In my head, its going down.
In my head, its going down.
In my head. Yeah. In my head. Oh yeah.
Some dudes know all the right things to say.
When it comes down to it, its just a game.
Instead of talking let me demonstrate. Yeah.
Get down to business lets skip foreplay.
Just leave with me now. Say the word and well go.
Ill be your teacher. Ill show you the ropes.
You'll see a side of love you've never known.
I can see it going down, going down.
In my head, I see you all over me.
In my head, you fulfill my fantasy.
In my head You'll be screaming no.
In my head, its going down.
In my head, its going down.
In my head.
Break it down. Ay-oh. Come on. Ay-oh. Ay-oh.
You singing to me baby in my head right now. Ay-oh. Ay-oh. Come on.
Shell be screaming out when it all goes down.
Just leave with me now. Say the word and well go. We can go.
Ill be your teacher. Ill show you the ropes.
Youll see a side of love you've never known.
I can see it going down, going down.
In my head, I see you all over me.
In my head, you fulfill my fantasy.
In my head You'll be screaming no.
In my head, its going down.
In my head, its going down.
In my head, I see you all over me.
In my head, you fulfill my fantasy.
In my head You'll be screaming more.
In my head, its going down.
In my head, its going down.
In my head
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Just always wanna dance when hear this one ... another cool song!
Deluga Heights.
J. J. J. J. J. R.
Come on.
Everybodys looking for love. Oh. Oh.
Aint that the reason youre at this club. Oh. Oh.
You aint gonna find a dance with him. No. Oh.
Got a better solution for you girl. Oh. Oh.
Just stay with me now. Say the word and well go.
Ill be your teacher. Ill show you the ropes.
Youll see a side of love you've never known.
I can see it going down, going down.
In my head, I see you all over me.
In my head, you fulfill my fantasy.
In my head Youll be screaming no.
In my head, its going down.
In my head, its going down.
In my head. Yeah. In my head. Oh yeah.
Some dudes know all the right things to say.
When it comes down to it, its just a game.
Instead of talking let me demonstrate. Yeah.
Get down to business lets skip foreplay.
Just leave with me now. Say the word and well go.
Ill be your teacher. Ill show you the ropes.
You'll see a side of love you've never known.
I can see it going down, going down.
In my head, I see you all over me.
In my head, you fulfill my fantasy.
In my head You'll be screaming no.
In my head, its going down.
In my head, its going down.
In my head.
Break it down. Ay-oh. Come on. Ay-oh. Ay-oh.
You singing to me baby in my head right now. Ay-oh. Ay-oh. Come on.
Shell be screaming out when it all goes down.
Just leave with me now. Say the word and well go. We can go.
Ill be your teacher. Ill show you the ropes.
Youll see a side of love you've never known.
I can see it going down, going down.
In my head, I see you all over me.
In my head, you fulfill my fantasy.
In my head You'll be screaming no.
In my head, its going down.
In my head, its going down.
In my head, I see you all over me.
In my head, you fulfill my fantasy.
In my head You'll be screaming more.
In my head, its going down.
In my head, its going down.
In my head
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Just always wanna dance when hear this one ... another cool song!
Minggu, September 11, 2011
The Stuff
I had ever hear about the quote -the boy says "you're pretty even thought without this stuff" -- yeah such a cool quote but although it's pretty true, almost of it just bullshit... Why I said that...
you know boys sometime just be an immature person for judging...
I know, I realize that me and every-girl in this word just born to be pretty even without that stuff but someway they make us feel prettier and confident ... yahhh... don't be bullshit person please, you know, when I go out without it, someboy even stare at me *oh hollaaaa.... then after I use them all, they're not only stare, they look at me like a starving dog look a bunch of meat.. hanging out the tongue (I'm not sexy at negative side, me, even use veil when hanging out) *harsh huh? that's the fact.... do you feel you're holly... huh...
then, after we use them, are we bitch? no at all.... are we that cheap? no at all......
why being like this can be wrong, I feel better at all, I feel fresher than before, and I feel fine... So. the judging eyes, stop stares me,m I love being myself.....
Girls always love being themselves with or without this stuff all.....
I never like with the boys who like judging, immature, and always expect every-girl as sweet as their mind... that so small brain for boys... how could you guys be a man later if you just fun to be boyish, such a childish thing you know.....
-Harsh huh, so hard to keep the fuck up, I hate to see much much of this kind of boys... the little stupid judge- and this stuff just little example... I dont have to tell the other example one by one right? it just clear enough... we have sooo little number of 'man' here -_-"
you know boys sometime just be an immature person for judging...
I know, I realize that me and every-girl in this word just born to be pretty even without that stuff but someway they make us feel prettier and confident ... yahhh... don't be bullshit person please, you know, when I go out without it, someboy even stare at me *oh hollaaaa.... then after I use them all, they're not only stare, they look at me like a starving dog look a bunch of meat.. hanging out the tongue (I'm not sexy at negative side, me, even use veil when hanging out) *harsh huh? that's the fact.... do you feel you're holly... huh...then, after we use them, are we bitch? no at all.... are we that cheap? no at all......
why being like this can be wrong, I feel better at all, I feel fresher than before, and I feel fine... So. the judging eyes, stop stares me,m I love being myself.....
Girls always love being themselves with or without this stuff all.....
I never like with the boys who like judging, immature, and always expect every-girl as sweet as their mind... that so small brain for boys... how could you guys be a man later if you just fun to be boyish, such a childish thing you know.....
Sabtu, September 10, 2011
Hello Campus
Okay, it will be my last post tonight... *Put my fingers up* ^^V swear....
Pathetic huh? I can't feel time goes by.... It's already (all of sudden) two months after last day I went to campus for exam and last day at 4th semester then tomorrow Monday will comes again as 5th semester student... And I don't prepare anything... Such a fail -_-"
Okay *karena galau* so I take some photos few times ago for my preparation to campus... What what, it just some outfit -fail again, it's exactly not a fashion blog, gawd- but yeah... wanna share little :)
Mom's veil (I always use head-cover or veil when going outside :) ), dark pink shirt [I don't really know the name of this color, just pink maybe] the shirt just cute, it has a ribbon belt around the waist. Green safir ring, gift from my auntie who had been from mekkah few days ago for umroh, green bandana and bow brooch (made by myself ^^ as well the bow brooch)
Sorry for lame picture, I don't really know why resolution just changed anyway :(, and ignore the mess room haha... Shirt and skirt are old, tight shirt and my mom's skirt yeah ^^, pink glasses (I use glasses :p ), and a pink lace that I put on my hand as accessories
Here... I love this shoes, nice shoes, Merk : Yongki Komaladi, I bought it in cheap cost when they had opened "the sale" haha ... *always have the girl taste for shopping
Ignore the mess... That such a hell XD *just shame......
Purple purple purple XD
Just simple head-cover without any accessories but the pink lace that I tied on ^^, Purple and pink just cute (I love full-color)
The last, pink veil with green "bandana". Sometimes I just getting bored with usual veil-style so I make the new. Ahhh if you never use, you won't see how it changed.. haha .... but I still love it XD
See... yeah, I ready for campus tomorrow Monday XD ... and okay, I have to comeback for my paper, -Horrison about Osteoporosis and Surgical principle Orthopaedics wait for me yeah...--- See ya later ^^
*WetKiss to screen hahaha....
Handmade
What I did, I lost ... hew… kidnapped by ghost and sleep at the
weird world? Lol -_-“
Yeah after long time no see, no write, seems no doing useful
something, I thought why I cant just to be more productive so I made some
handmade stuffs…
See, first, cute flower … At first I wanna put it on my
motorcycle key, but suddenly I change my mind and put it on my new purple
school bag. Isn’t it cute? Kawai … ^^
The second one I made, the pathetic doll ever… ha…
Somehow It looks like voodoo doll, but can you remember who
it looks alike? Yeah, it’s look like Pon at PonZi my favorite comic character
^^, but I cant said it really Pon, even if it’s blue but the eyes black not white, and he really pathetic… He said “See, I take my heart off to give it for
you, but now I know it just vain because you can’t take it, I have no idea
how to put it back so I just bring it in my hand”
*crying…….
Then (almost forget) about this box... one day I cleaned my room and found this milk box just already empty, when I wanna put it on trash suddenly I thought why I have to throw it away, I can make something, and here ... Haha, just simple one, but it useful right...
The next one, a bow brooch! I can put it on ‘bandana’ or
on the veil, or my shirt. I love this one too J
It’s really fun when you can see what you made is cute, yeah everyone couldn't buy it anywhere so I can make them envy …. Haha *EvilGrin
But I can see, I'm not an expert, everything I made just in a mess T_T" ... and when I made, my room just in a mess too XDThe Queen Bracelet
Woa…… it already 10 September 2011 and my post only two, two
lame post that I don’t know exactly wkwkwk….
Sorry it seems my brain was stolen by something or what, I
don’t know (still can feel the effect at all XD help!)
Few days ago I just hanged around at Pasar Martapura, alone…
*I enjoy hanging around alone by the way** J…
yeah after long long holiday, It seems I need more stuff to buy, for no reason
suddenly getting ‘laper mata’ and went to ‘diamond shop’ a.k.a pasar intan and
then again for no reason (I’ll always like this if I going to somewhere without
any clear purpose, just follow my heart, haha, I’m look geek huh) came to ‘Kalimantan’s
shop’
Guess what just I found, voila…. I found the super cute and
elegant bracelet. At the first I though it too ‘adult’ and ‘crowded’ for me,
but after I took it on my hand, oh my good, it’s really queen’s bracelet XD
In Heaven [MV teaser] by JYJ
Since few days ago, I saw this teaser and I feel like thousand times yet to wait the full MV... How dare you make me so long waiting .... *crying
haha...
By the way, it will be so awesome music video from JYJ (Sad cant say DBSK or something) *second crying
Check this out ..
haha...
By the way, it will be so awesome music video from JYJ (Sad cant say DBSK or something) *second crying
Check this out ..
Kamis, September 08, 2011
Not Fair by Lily Allen
Oh, he treats me with respect,
He says he loves me all the time,
He calls me 15 times a day,
He likes to make sure that im fine,
You know I've never met a man,
Whose made me feel quite so secure,
He's not like all them other boys,
They're all so dumb and immature.
There's just one thing,
That's getting in the way,
When we go up to bed your just no good,
its such a shame!
I look into your eyes,
I want to get to know you,
And then you make this noise,
and its apparently its all over
Its not fair,
And i think your really mean,
I think your really mean,
I think your really mean.
Oh your supposed to care,
But you never make me scream,
You never make me scream,
Oh it's not fair,
And it's really not ok,
It's really not ok,
It's really not ok,
Oh your supposed to care,
But all you do is take,
Yeah, all you do is take.
I lay here in this wet patch
in the middle of the bed,
im feeling pretty damn hard done by
i spent ages giving head.
Then i remember all the nice things
that you've ever said to me,
maybe im just over reacting
maybe your the one for me.
There's just one thing,
That's getting in the way,
When we go up to bed your just no good,
its such a shame!
I look into your eyes,
I want to get to know you,
And then you make this noise,
and its apparently its all over
Its not fair,
And i think your really mean,
I think your really mean,
I think your really mean.
Oh your supposed to care,
But you never make me scream,
You never make me scream,
Oh it's not fair,
And it's really not ok,
It's really not ok,
It's really not ok,
Oh your supposed to care,
But all you do is take,
Yeah, all you do is take.
[Video]
He says he loves me all the time,
He calls me 15 times a day,
He likes to make sure that im fine,
You know I've never met a man,
Whose made me feel quite so secure,
He's not like all them other boys,
They're all so dumb and immature.
There's just one thing,
That's getting in the way,
When we go up to bed your just no good,
its such a shame!
I look into your eyes,
I want to get to know you,
And then you make this noise,
and its apparently its all over
Its not fair,
And i think your really mean,
I think your really mean,
I think your really mean.
Oh your supposed to care,
But you never make me scream,
You never make me scream,
Oh it's not fair,
And it's really not ok,
It's really not ok,
It's really not ok,
Oh your supposed to care,
But all you do is take,
Yeah, all you do is take.
I lay here in this wet patch
in the middle of the bed,
im feeling pretty damn hard done by
i spent ages giving head.
Then i remember all the nice things
that you've ever said to me,
maybe im just over reacting
maybe your the one for me.
There's just one thing,
That's getting in the way,
When we go up to bed your just no good,
its such a shame!
I look into your eyes,
I want to get to know you,
And then you make this noise,
and its apparently its all over
Its not fair,
And i think your really mean,
I think your really mean,
I think your really mean.
Oh your supposed to care,
But you never make me scream,
You never make me scream,
Oh it's not fair,
And it's really not ok,
It's really not ok,
It's really not ok,
Oh your supposed to care,
But all you do is take,
Yeah, all you do is take.
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Oke finish!
Hening bentar ...
Pertama kali denger lagu ini, hah guess what! It's funny (don't ask who and what I think about, just let it go) ... Lily Allen makes this song funny...
Waktu denger musiknya rame, kayak koboy-koboy gitu, pas diperhatikan lebih tajam liriknya, loh loh... trus bener bener didengering akunya malah ketawa... Ekspresinya pertama waktu nyanyi kayak cewek polos trus tiba-tiba joget koboy .. ngenes banget kasusnya -but it's almost always happen at all- Bukti kalo sebagian besar cowok itu -egois- dengan berbagai sudut pandang dan cara...
Trus coba deh liat muka pemain musik cowoknya apalagi yang rambut panjang keriting, mukanya bt banget mainin musiknya, risih sama lagunya ceritanya, dan satu yang paling aku bingungkan, apa motivasinya ayam sama sapi dijadikan maskot ntu lagu.... I don't get the point but someway I though it really fit to tell by chicken and cow wkwkwkwk.. XD *lempar guling ke ayam!
Trus searching liriknya biar gak salah tulis, manggut manggut bentar sambil cekikikan baca komen. masa ada yang comment gini *this song remind me with my husband* emak.... kasian betul buk! Tapi ada berapa komen gitu yang mirip kayak gitu juga. Lah jadi gimana ini ckckck ... Lily kamu peka sekali sih sama masalah rumah tangga, curhat ya kakakkk... he....
Tapi kayaknya sesat juga kalo make istilah -beli kucing dalam karung- dalam kasus begini. Masa sebelum married harus dites gitu, halah! Filosofi *aejah kata2nya*** legalitas juga mempengaruhi sebuah hubungan. Sometimes it's not fun or make you comfort when making out without any relationship between, (something makes you afraid) but after both you really own each other and love each other, sure it will feels good.. Lalalala .... *Kabur ke rerumputan hahahahaha....
Kamis, September 01, 2011
Cookies Kismis
Hari ini kayaknya hari memasak sedunia atau apa... gitu. Barusan habis dari rumah guru SMA ngumpul sama temen-temen sambil masakkkkk... Trus sampe kerumah bikin kue lagi, asik bener...
Here...
Cookies kismis ala Sari :))
Hmmm.... How it looks ??? ^^
Practically aku bikinnya sendiri tapi ada beberapa asisten-asisten kecil yang duduk sekedar bantuin kocok mentega dan telur, ngambilin cetakan kue dan oven,. bahkan usil bikin bentuk-bentuk kue yang aneh bin ancur.
Resep hasil eksperimen :
350 gr tepung terigu
50 gr coklat bubuk
1/2 sdt baking powder
campur jadi satu (kalo keliatannya gak halus, ayak dulu biar gak ngegumpal)
mentega 200 gr
gula halus 250 gr
vanilli 1 sdt
di mixer sampai nyatu dan halus, trus kasil telur satu-persatu (1 telur dan 2 kuning telur aja). Habis itu campurin sama campuran tepung coklat sebelumnya, aduk pake tangan aja, sampai bener-bener kalis, kalo terlalu lembek tambahin tepung. (semua ukuran sebenarnya gak pas banget, kira-kira aja, pake feeling)
Kalo udah dicetak sesuai kesukaan, aku bikinnya bentuk hati, bukan karena lagi kasmaran tapi emang itu pilihan asisten-asisten kecil :p (kasih kismis tengahnya) trus dipanggang, nah susahnya bikin kue coklat adalah kadang matang sama gak matang tu susahhhh banget dibedain. Tapi kalo udah peka bikin kue, bisa tau ko. Rajin-rajin aja buka oven buat diliat (ini kalo oven gak disetting) tapi jangan sering-sering juga, kalo masih agak lembab dan warna coklatnya masih gelap berarti belum matang, bisa ketahuan juga dari baunya kalo wangi berarti udah matang, trus tanda lainnya gak nempel di loyang jadi gampang diambil.
nah kalo udah beres tunggu dingin, pas lagi panas wajar kalo masih belum keras dan voila.....
Here...
Cookies kismis ala Sari :))
Practically aku bikinnya sendiri tapi ada beberapa asisten-asisten kecil yang duduk sekedar bantuin kocok mentega dan telur, ngambilin cetakan kue dan oven,. bahkan usil bikin bentuk-bentuk kue yang aneh bin ancur.
Resep hasil eksperimen :
350 gr tepung terigu
50 gr coklat bubuk
1/2 sdt baking powder
campur jadi satu (kalo keliatannya gak halus, ayak dulu biar gak ngegumpal)
mentega 200 gr
gula halus 250 gr
vanilli 1 sdt
di mixer sampai nyatu dan halus, trus kasil telur satu-persatu (1 telur dan 2 kuning telur aja). Habis itu campurin sama campuran tepung coklat sebelumnya, aduk pake tangan aja, sampai bener-bener kalis, kalo terlalu lembek tambahin tepung. (semua ukuran sebenarnya gak pas banget, kira-kira aja, pake feeling)
Kalo udah dicetak sesuai kesukaan, aku bikinnya bentuk hati, bukan karena lagi kasmaran tapi emang itu pilihan asisten-asisten kecil :p (kasih kismis tengahnya) trus dipanggang, nah susahnya bikin kue coklat adalah kadang matang sama gak matang tu susahhhh banget dibedain. Tapi kalo udah peka bikin kue, bisa tau ko. Rajin-rajin aja buka oven buat diliat (ini kalo oven gak disetting) tapi jangan sering-sering juga, kalo masih agak lembab dan warna coklatnya masih gelap berarti belum matang, bisa ketahuan juga dari baunya kalo wangi berarti udah matang, trus tanda lainnya gak nempel di loyang jadi gampang diambil.
nah kalo udah beres tunggu dingin, pas lagi panas wajar kalo masih belum keras dan voila.....
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