Yes I'm not Normal ....

Why, I cant just pretend like nothing happened

Why, I cant enjoy everything I was got

Why, I cant make something funny

Why, I cant the least just not to bothering else people around me

Why, I cant stop this bullshit and just make my pain bigger

Why, I cant become the normal girl and have fun with other girls

Why, I cant just flirted by the-handsome-cute-perfect-boy around me

Well, I just cant answer every-Why I have ever said ...

Yes .. I'm Not Normal ... Sorry for being not normal... It was me, and always me ....

and every breath what I made, it just makes me crying out of loud

 

and every moment what I got ... depressed takes it first before me

and this broken-bleeding-wings cant flying to take something in the sky

and when my knife takes its part to make it easy ... It was crazy-epic-fail

it's very cold in the outside but I cant just go inside to get the warmth

I dont have any place everywhere...

the wind made me flowing away and with all my strength, I back again

comeback to take my bullet again, and shooting on my head... I take my chance for it

It's harder when you choose to stay alive than you just let death comes and pick you up

But, what I waiting for ...

Makes me let my heart defends ....

just look at my teary-red-eyes ...

 it's so cold since the last you seen

And I wont make this love be the reason for the death attacks me, never

Heaven that I dreaming of wont wait for me, neither hell, even world ... I being wasted

But I know where I not wasted ....

In the doll heart .... 

And someday, in a day when this love could make us kill each other ... it will be so perfect and sad to finish this all bullshit ... but it wont happen because I just stay here with my un-normal act and look at my reflection with my cold-teary-red eyes, trying to fly to take my love with broken-bleeding-wings ... and everytime the wind flowing me away, I'll comeback to take again my chance to get the pain ....

Why I cant be normal

I just wanna be normal

Yes, I'm Not Normal...

Sorry for being uncontrollable

Sorry for being not-normal

Sorry for keep this over-deep love

This's me, and well .... it's how it must be.....