Hard to Control It

I just realized that It hard to control myself when I saw you ...
I'm smiling .... yes I'm smiling
I'm wondering ... yes I'm wondering
Sometime, I got daydreaming ... sweet daydreaming

I just realized that it hard to control myself to ......


okay ... I just realized that maybe I'm not available for that ....
I'm smiling .... just look only at my smiling face
I'm wondering .... just look only at my innocent dumb face
okay ... I just realized that maybe I'm not available for that ... But
My mind forces it .....

It hard to control my mind ... my mind!!!


Sometime, when see you ... it feel so awkward, so strange ... then I try to check it out
Touch your trembling warm hand and yes I know it's you, really you, not a devil soul who try to be you, not another people looks like you, it's you
But I just feel awkward like... are you the guy who I texted few minutes ago? Are you the guy who texts me everynight before I went to sleep?
Yes, it must be you but I dont know I feel like 'different' sometime .....

It's more than what I expected before but ..... *ahhhh too much 'but'
Then I only agree it .... yes agree... it's you
I still feel like you're different with you're who I know with you're who I meet everyday with you're who I love ...
I'm not hesitate .... Just ask in my mind as you know ... I cant control my mind, it just funny ...
Funny, wondering, how I said 'love you' easily everynight but how I feel awkward to 'at least skinship' in real life ... haha ... it's normal, isn't it?
Just funny, like high school girl, feel shy, smiling, redened face, or something .....
Just funny and laugh .... maybe it because I expect too much for the time that maybe wont coming soon ...

Dont mind it ! ...... haha ... just my devil mind ;'/

by : Peri Hujan