How I Want to Own You by Myself, Only Me.....

Forgive me if everything that I wrote just hurting you or make you feel guilty... I did it because I cant hold it by myself, I cant hold it anymore in my chest... If you hate I did it, just say and I'll stop it ...

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Sometime (at the fact, always) ... I feel sad!
Just thought, if you were really mine, I just acted that I were really yours ... I dont know how stupid it is

I know and let it
I know and stay like that, can't turn back
I'm hurt but let it stab me always ...
How sweet if I can feel that you only mine ... not other's

I think about Mr right ... haha...
But I cant find him everywhere...
I cant find someone, at least pretty like you... no one
I think Mr right will help, but not ....
STupid I stay here ... smiling ... I'm hurt
Even if it happen everyday, I just still hurt, cant mind anything ....

just jealous and jealous ... STUPID

Who am I, just a newbie, just a stranger, just ....

If I can give you a quest ....
Try to find it ...
1. Find other people like me
2. Find other girl like me
3. Find other girl who loves you as big as my love
4. Find other girl who loves you more than mine
5. Leave me ....

Haha.... could you do it?
You wont ... I know .... but if I give you other quest
only one quest ....
==Make a choice==

could you do it?
You cant .. I know ....
Haha ....

That's why I let it like that ...
Just like that ... try to be so understanding, even for something that 'I must be angry for that' but I still try to understand ....


Because you stay in your own pain and never want give you more pain ... so, dont ever to think it and make it so killing you ... I prefer if you leave me for her than, you leave me because killed by all this bullshit! But, I'll kill both of you by my hand if you leave me for her and then she just make you killed by other bullshit!


Do you know ...
At the fact, I have many personalities, I can use anyone to  get strong but I dont do it because I only want one personality, the one who loves you and killing all that hate you ...

Do you know ....
At the fact, I have wings, I can go anytime I want, I can leave you anytime I want, I think I'll be okay, maybe better without you... But I cant leave not because I cant but because I wont .... it's different... I wont ... My heart just falling easily there and will be there until unknown ...

Do you know ...
At the fact, I can be selfish.. owned you by myself, about her, whatever she will feels, whoever she is, who's care, I dont care, I just know her name, even she's not my friend. Since first time I met her I know, she not really likes me, so what ... I'm really dont care, who will care, I only care for myself .....but Unfortunately I cant .. because the situation ... never wanna hurt you, and try never wanna hurt other woman ...


I dont know how to leave .... just teach me but I know you wont because you forget how to do it as well haha ... I dont know and you forget .... same? yeah same ....
So just let it ... Let it like that?



BUT IT STILL PLAYING AROUND MY MIND, HOW I WANT TO OWN YOU BY MYSELF, ONLY YOU AND I ... NO OTHER ... IF I COULD ...

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by : Peri Hujan